I had a serious dip yesterday, and did consider stopping the Q and A on my blog due to rude remarks, scary emails and quite a few not so well-presented or kind opinions.
Who do you think you are? This blog is dumb and obviously written by an amateur. …fake…
I posted what could be the last question, Am I too stupid to ask questions? – closed my computer, packed a suitcase and crossed the border to Norway to visit my parents. I decided not to touch the computer for a day, and think things thoroughly.
On my way to Norway a friend of mine called me, a fellow dev, a MVP and therefore a person used to being in the spotlight. We had a long talk, and although I didn’t want to promise anything I said I would consider what he/she said. That phone call meant a lot to me.
You are doing what you do so well, and being you is what people like about you. Don’t stop that.
I arrived at my parents, feeling very depleted and a bit spaced out. Even if I had felt like talking, it would have been hard as their world is far away from mine. I slept for many hours. Had some really weird dreams, forgot all of them.
An hour ago I woke up at 10PM, and I opened my computer.
The first thing I noticed was an inbox full of unread mail. I opened Twitter, mentions was full. My phone, full of sms. My blog full of pending comments.
I carefully read them all, messages and comments one by one. Each and single was allocated a bit of memory in my heart, some were humorous, some very personal and emotional, and some snap-out-of-it style. I laughed, cried and smiled a lot as I read through all of them.
It made me so incredible happy, not just for the support I was getting, as a person, but also (and maybe even more important) for what this symbolized. The support was aimed at new programmers having a place to turn to; I was cheered on to continue with the Q and A with that purpose in mind.
A thought struck me, how selfish wouldn’t it be if I did indeed quit the Q and A? If I with the energy I am blessed with, and the bordering to foolish passion, didn’t dare to ask, how would then other new developers fare? What message would I be sending out? And with the substantial support I was getting from the community, quitting seemed cowardly- a word that would not describe me very. I stopped being scared a long time ago, and I am sure as hell not starting now.
What was very interesting, was the fact that out of the probably hundreds of responses that I got- not a single one was negative. And that proves something. I am not quitting the Q and A, as a matter of fact, I’ll make then even more ‘stupid’, I’ll use even more illustrations, and I’ll ask and answer just as I see fit – with comments being more than. I’ll add a disclaimer however, as many of you advised.
A thousand million trillion super-awesome thank you, all of you, for the enormous support you’ve given me! You have no idea how much it means to me, and how energized I feel right now! So, it’s time to give some energy back! I have plenty of questions and code to share and it is going to be one hell of a ride.