I love to draw, but for some reason I haven’t been drawing for quite a few years. As I was looking through a box with old stuff at my parents house I found some old drawings that I made around 2003-2004.
Iris Daniela Classon
Jan 012012
Conversation with me, that new year
It has been an interesting year don’t you think? I ask me
Absolutely, it has been a crazy one – I totally agree.
Felt this incredible happiness on so many days,
Felt giggly, happy and content in so many ways.
But on some days I felt grief and was unbelievable sad
And at the time it always felt like the worst day I had ever had.
I have to ask myself: Did you ever fell nothing at all?
I think for a moment, then answer with a smile: Not as I recall.
Every single day had an emotion some big, some small
But they all made me feel stronger, made me stand tall
I did keep my promise for the year and started believing that I can
I removed my limitations and fears and made a plan
Took the chance on a different direction
Had more conversations like this for reflection
I became aware that I was breathing, that I, you, me, I am alive
I saw the world as an ocean full of possibilities and took a big dive
I have to ask – didn’t this sometimes cause you pain?
Oh dear, I answer, sometimes it felt like I was totally messing with my brain
The ocean seemed so big on some days I was desperately looking for the drain.
But at the same time I was so full of life, oh- it’s hard to explain.
And your promises for this year? I am going to be more kind,
Of course to those around me, but also very important: to my heart and mind
Because I pretty much figured out by now that whenever I get sad,
That no, it will never be the worst day I have ever had.
And that everyday feeling, loving and living as you want is a day worth to keep,
All mountains are climbable you just have to believe in you and take that leap.
There is a whole lot of living going on in my heart,
I promise you it’s quite a party, and as beautiful as fine art
So thank you for the conversation, no thank you I say
Happy new year to me and have a fantastic number one day!
I’ve got some grand plans and I am totally ready to play,
Just aimed for the stars and it’s up-up and away!
Waking up- please leave a few pieces
So I woke up this one morning. Might have been tomorrow or yesterday.
Breathing seemed more easy and my life felt like it wasn’t on delay.
I had no idea, if I had slept for an hour…. Or two… or the whole night.
My mind felt well rested and waking up wasn’t the expected fight.
I though; we have this thing called life and we don’t know what it’s for.
Choices seem so many but always seem so disappointingly poor.
The obvious ones to make are sometime the ones that break your heart.
Devastating as it seems, those torn out pieces do grow back.
I knew this one morning that I was ready to have this important talk.
Bubble had burst a long time ago, and being crippled my legs longed to walk.
With every bit of courage and love inside I had to say what felt right.
So I would be able to close my eyes again and be able to sleep another night.
In my numbness and holding my breath only pain was allowed in.
I spoke as I felt the fire spreading, painfully burning, and I knew I couldn’t win.
So we had this talk. Remind me, was it tomorrow or yesterday?
I don’t recall the words spoken, pain lingers, and it’s not a competition you say.
Nonetheless it does feel like something was lost, yours, ours or mine.
And grasping invisible air I try to save feelings, memories and time.
To keep some of it, to build on something old and produce something new.
I honestly don’t need much, just please leave some pieces- I really just need a few.
So many tiny, tiny, broken out pieces. Some of you and some of me.
But we are still standing here whole can’t you see?
So maybe it’s time to breathe and dry those tears,
Finish this talk and accept our fears.
It will be, you know, at some point okay.
And it might be tomorrow or it might be today.
Nov 232011
Started of the morning with a plyometrics workout, provided what I consider one of the most inspirational home-workouts websites, bodyrock.tv. I reckon you should give this a go, it takes only twelve minutes and it sure wakes up your body!
I didn’t feel to well, I feel sick, so I couldn’t go all in, but here are my scores nonetheless:
1. Speed Skater Squats with the Sandbag – 33, 26, 26
2. Reverse 1 Leg Pull up with the Dip station – 24, 20, 14
3. 3 Pike Presses and 5 Ski Jumps over the sandbag – 5, 4, 4
4. Ugi Star Planks – 17, 11, 12
I’m going to the gym as well after school and work- provided I feel better.
Another very inspirational breakfast meeting/seminar with Connect vest. This time Alexander Hars, the mastermind behind system OK and let’s deal inspired with his passion and achievements. What a great way to start of the day! Can hardly wait to get back home pack my things and head of to school and program 
Later tonight I am holding a lecture on modern nutrition, and I am super excited!
Nov 212011
The bindingmachine stopped working today, so at 10 pm I had to bind almost 20 folders by hand. The folders are for my guests tomorrow at the moder nutrition lecture. Binding by hand with tiny sharp plastic coils hurts. Don’t try this at home!
Just had to brag! After my hand operation two years ago or so I was told that I wouldn’t be able to lift heavier than 5 kg – but HAH! A strong mind in a strong body, there is nothing I can’t do. Today I was going to try 27.5 kg, but I’ve been dreaming about the 30′s for a while now and I thought what the hell, let’s give it a go! I plugged in my fav music and with a mighty – but girly- roar the bar with the 30 kg came up. Pfffft… easy! Can’t wait for next week to start, I want to set new personal best in programming as well! Oh boy do I love a good challenge If you believe you can do it or not, you are most likely right. And I believe I can, pretty much, do anything. Let’s just se how I did on my first programming course hehe.. hmmmm…. results should come next week sometime!
Nov 192011
Adding some new recipes to my imaginary Iris Cookbook today with: Dinner: Tomato soup with beans and squash seasoned with tarragon, topped with olive crutons. Dessert: Swedish apples and pomegranate stirred with honey, ginger and coconut. Drink: orange and lemon lemonade with honey. Snack: soy beans seasoned with garlic and seasalt.
A friend of mine, Nima, recommended sportlife exclusive – an ‘exclusive’ gym. In Denmark and Asutralia those kind of clubs are very popular, and are branded as lifestyle clubs, with spa’s, restaurants and relax-areas (massage and so on). With exercise being such a big part of my life I’ve never had any second thoughts about spending some extra money on a lifestyle club. So I was very excited to try out this gym, the closest I’ve gotten to an exclusive gym here in Gothenburg was a gym called Nordic Wellness where I worked as a Personal trainer, but the club didn’t go to well, they lowered their prices and memberships continued to decline. One day when I came to work the gym was gone, and I hadn’t even been notified 
. Anyways! Tried out sportlife exclusive and I really liked it, superfresh- nice people and well-maintained. I’m going to give this gym a go for a couple of weeks and I’ll let you know 
Nov 142011
Had to skip school today and work instead and prepare my upcoming lectures in November and December. I spent 9 h Sunday programming and I’m going to spend a few more hours tonight. So,with such a compact schedule with mostly sitting down activities, exercise becomes even more important. For my physical and mental health I’m actually out for an hour run, look at the amazing nature! Go out, and inhale that beautiful magic called nature,- do it now! Well, back to work. Gym later tonight